Thursday, July 29, 2004
What do i seek in this life?
Could it just be you?
Was i made just to meet you?
QUestions questions questions whither thy endless thoughts resound?
doth in thine own conscience find the stalk of life's truth in its command
Why do i still pine for you through all these daes
For a person who will fill all my empty daes.
I cannot understand you at all
in your entirety or in your scell
Still i find you not
UNderstanding is such a long path away
I see the flickers and sparks in your eyes
trying to tell me something in your sighs
WHen i start to respond
the chill wind of ether blows unto me
assailing the senses
Bringing me into the dark place of whether
Still i wonder in the summer
how to deal with the killer
what do u wish of me?
y am i alwaes so confused...
ok...bad poem veri bad poem...
sorrie loz...
can;t think well...
muz b coz
hmmm...heckx...
geee boredom nobody tot ok to...
otr ppl nt responding sheesh
-Blogged at 7/29/2004 04:50:00 PM
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
境界
昨夜西风凋碧树
独上高楼，望尽天涯路
衣带渐
宽终不悔
为伊消得人憔悴
众里寻她千白度
回首蓦见
那人却在灯火栏栅处
staring at the wall
wondering where you are
asking useless questions
where are u?
wat r u doin?
why can i never forget u
even when i try so hard.
even when i try n to tok to u
i end up doin so..
wat draws me to u?
y cna;t i escape this never ending torture??
In the darkness i see your face
is it yet another race?
in the ethereal dreams of yore
upon the stars of fore
In the darkness i hear your voice
as it echoes in my choice
wat else can i do except
forget about u?
In the shadows i seek solace
only to find deaths dark embrace
when will i feel your arms around me
in the moonlight's grace
In the moonlight i see your poise
as u lean in on the noise
looking at you through empty orbs
only to find a selfless sob
within me
Ill be here
Why?
Ill be waiting here
For what?
Ill b waiting for you
If you come here
You will find me
I promise.
i doubt u will ever look for me.
But if u ever neeed me u juz have to ask
ill still b waiting here for u...
alwaes...
this is to....
you...
mayb u might nt know who "you" are...
how ironic...
aniwaES..
cya
-Blogged at 7/27/2004 04:32:00 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2004
hmm.....
weird daes...
had psf interview on fri was abit diao
since junghans and llyod were dere and they r my psfs loz...den like 1 of teh ques had to do wif psfs den wat u expect me to sae lox...
those r teh psfs i know bez?
so siao...
diaoness
hmmm...aniwaes i htink i screwed it up?
yeapiex...
yay
hmm...
oh yea kindred spirits was fun and nubbad! bt was late laz.
coz i b lur..lolz.
ok nvm
hmm...
yea...
okie dokie..
2dae was crzay..
i did a hand spring??
wtf..
bt i gt hip injury...
den my hip went CRACCCKK
den ouch..
pain...
and i sufferun frm overexertion AND overexhaustion....siao bo
sadness...
i knwo tt coz i nearly fainted on my wae hm and when i was practising...so yea..
and vision blur blur...
and mind can't focus eyes can't focus
siao
oh wellz...
at least i never faint i guess..
hee
so at least its a silver lining?
:P
at least now i feel betta,...
whew:)
-Blogged at 7/25/2004 02:46:00 PM
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Message: Would you do it too ?
!A girl and guy were speeding over100 mphon the road...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun
.Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.Girl: Fine, I love you.
Slow down!Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it onyourself?
Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):A motorcycle had crashed into a building becauseof break failure. 2 people were on it, but only1survived.The truth was that halfway down the road, theguyrealized that his breaks broke, but he didn'twant to let the girl know. Instead, he had hersay she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time,then had her wear his helmet so that she wouldlive even though it meant that he would die.
(can you really hug someone on a motorcycle, andcan you actually hear what the other person issaying over the loud engine?)
Would you do this for someone??
-Blogged at 7/20/2004 06:47:00 PM
When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them. At that moment, you are in love.
Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone. Then, you are in love.
Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call! At that moment, you are in love.
If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love. When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your answering machine because of one message from thatspecial someone, you are in love.
When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone. Then, you are in love.
You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love.
While you are reading this page, if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that person.
-Blogged at 7/20/2004 06:46:00 PM
Thursday, July 15, 2004
hmmm..2dae had to wwash cars 4 charity its seriously weird??
lolz...
some tchers so kind donate 50 some donate 10??
lolz..and some of our tchers really evil
like never wash their car at all de den want us to wash 4 them
DIAO!!!
siao loz..
hehe
crazy tchers really freaky lahz...
AP rehearsal 2dae...look really cool...
tmr is screwed i reach sch at 7 after sch go bio den 2158 AFTER tt do detention duty siao bo den rush hm to bathe den rush back to sch for renaissance duty..
haiz
hmmm....tts y cannot go 4 dance thingy lolz...
asked ppl if wanna watch renaissance bt in the end haiz....nvm loz??
hee
-Blogged at 7/15/2004 10:09:00 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
hey guess wat....i found my long lost fren!
ZI Jun
my kindergarten fren yay:)
and sze ying or watever....i added her to msn bt she can't rem me
sad
*sobx*
wish could put a cryin smiley here juz to irritate ppl:)
aniwaes....
yea
am i so ez to forget??
ok prob nt since ppl rem me yay!!!
haha
i hope aniwae...
yea...
an im waitin for RO to patch finish darn it...
and chattin again
hmmm...
Daryl comments that i am nt a loser juz chao slack
hehe
i guess so???:)
hehe
yay
-Blogged at 7/13/2004 09:26:00 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2004
there is no sadness w/o happiness
there is a a balance to all things w/o tt balance nuttin exists...
oh yea thx daryl:)
-Blogged at 7/10/2004 11:15:00 PM
hmm...
sometimes i think im juz pure stupidity and nuttin else
i mean
like heartbreaks....heartaches more likely
all 4 nuttin i know tt this love is impossible so y do i try?
coz im stupid yea..
gd ans...
arh darn...
im stupid so i guess i can'y help it...
yux..
its pain....sometimes really pain
i dun know myself can sb tell me whu i am?
am i a happpy person?
am i juz a loser?
smilin and laughin arnd in sch bt does tt mean im happy?
nt alwaes...
and den when u gt pissed ppl sae its a tantrum
while THEY can go arnd castin their temper coz they r HOT TEMPERED
BULLShit
im hot tempered too bt i dun go arnd yeelin at anibody i freakin c
so screew off...
hmmm....and i help and help and help bt what do i gt?
nuttin
coz it becomes expected of mett i MUZ help u
and its nt bloody true i dun even gt a word of thx and its EXPECTED of me to help u and cheer u up?
yea rite
and when other cheer u up u thank them coz well they mean well!
wow...
ain't tt juz nice and sweet
oh yea and some ppl....
u brag and brag and brag rubbin every lil thing in...
wat does it give u?
satisfaction?
is it really tt fun?
i sae a lil and u accuse me of braggin?
bt meanwhile u r braggin bout this n that this or that
and well u r nt braggin u r juz....
wat?
sayin the truth well screw off u son of*insert 2 words here*
hmm...
ok i shld stop it alr
makin my blog evil...
cyaz
-Blogged at 7/10/2004 10:42:00 PM
havn't really blogged 4 some time
DUN READ IF U R EASILY OFFENDED
ESP IF U R IN RPEFECTS
hmm...it seems as if the onli wae to gt ahead in this world is if u suck up and do well in ur studies...
seems abit unfair that a few people don't deserve to gt it but they get into the interviews im not sayin that tehy are unworthy bt rather juz tt its a bit sad...
and now prefect exco....
bit worriesd bout next year...
every choice is wrong and correct at the same time..
whu to b head prefect?
thats the main question....
whu IS worthy of being head prefect...
frankly speakin i think jeremy loi or nigel slevie...
ok...
if ani of the exco nominees read this and are insulted dun b its juz tt i feel tt Jeremy shld b head prefect bt he might wanna b in chrage of scouts instead so...well mayb nt while selvies results are nt excellent so its havin me worried...
i dun wan a head prefect whu onli cares bout studyin and does nt put n much effort into the board or an exco memeber nt doin anithin other than carrin the title of exco emember arnd...
lookin at teh list now....
oh yea shen yang could b head prefect 2...
but...
well i dunno...
if he is hopfully he knows wat he is doin....
oh and guess wat...
i am supposedly in charge of Recess tables and lie WHAT!
i never even do tables and u wanna make me AGL?
how bout the other duties?
i did assembly 4 4 mths!
and main gates 4 9 mths or so
in my entire prefect life
and liek...
WHAT
oh yea....u gave assembly to brendan and shen yang...
sure...
i dun doubt their capability
what wif them stickin arnd teh office the whoel dae even though they r nt supposed to b dere and they r nt reprimanded...
so what do u mean they have a special priveledge to b dere?
juz coz u feel that they must b helpin out?
thats lame and u know it..
i help out and u sae tt i am there juz to slack and make nosie and wat r tehy doin?
OH!
HELPIN out..
SURE...
Thi is nothin personal against brendan and shen yang btw..
jzu my thoughts
and guys i dun have a very bad opinion of u so relax if u read this...
and dun get all defensive on me...
oh yea..next thing
Psf applications...
when i joined rugby nathan promised that e wuld nt get int he wae of ruggers and oppurunities presented to em...
bt wat te hell?
now u sae tt u dun wan ani single one of us to b psfs?
and wat the hell do u know how bloody much it means to us u
*insert vulgar words here*
its acommuntiy and a work which means alot to us
juz coz u r a cold hearted *insert vulgar word here again*
does NT mean we r
and juz coz u posses no leadeship at all does nt give u teh right to ruin our dreams and our lives
wats so bloody great bout yellin at ppl
i can do tt 2...
anibidy can do tt...
and
and LLTC...
wats ur prob...
juz coz u liek the bloody pppl u nominate them
VERY smart...
u lil..
ok...
nvm....evil persona comin out again...
its juz...
abit...
irritatin
and frustratin...
sorry nathan
Did i mention...
wat makes the prefect thing so much more frustratin i know that i could b in therein the exco if i juz toed the line more
oh and sorry if i dun suck up i can't not my prob and i dun care ui wan ppl to suck up to u?
go find sb else...brendan mayb....bt he wun lahz...
hes gettin betta...i hope...
jzu abit unfair
do u all juz judge on the surface?
i do slack i admit..
bt i know when to slack and when nt to so wat if i slack in front of our present exco it does nt mean that i am lazy juz tt it does nt require u to put all ur effort into it..
and its a time to relax adn a prelude to teh storm.
when we gotta work den i WILL
arrgh....
life is sad bt theres light at teh end of the tunnel...
yea...
sorta...
juz tt at the moment teh light seems abit far awae and distant frm me...
so wat?
oh well jzu continue walkin along life's trodden path towards the light i guess....
everydays a torture
everydays a haze
puttin on my mask
throughout all my days.
Kiss me gd bye
on nights endless eve
so i may die wif lifes
endless weave
damn it...
do uw ant me to b happie and crazy or juz the solemn old me?
which 1 am i?
WHU am I?
WHAT am i?
whu can ans rhese question?
mayb myself..
bt i dun even know the ans to tt...
it seems as if i am 2 diff ppl...
at teh same tiem..
-Blogged at 7/10/2004 10:11:00 AM
Monday, July 05, 2004
can't find e right words to sae
tt proves it....im pure stupid..
-Blogged at 7/05/2004 03:47:00 PM
Thursday, July 01, 2004
yesterdae went NEwater loz den abit e lame loz den teh gys were abit.....hyper so disgraced ourselves...totally lolx kiez nvm den like i misplaced a waterbottle?
den kena make fun of....lozl...
oh wellz.... y is it alwaes me?
jeremy saes tt i lead a life of tragic comedy....mayb hes rite..lolz
yea
so aniwaes Kwang agree to let me get down at teh bus stop coz i live near changi mahz kembangann nt too far lahz....nearer than sji mahz.... so i drop le den i realise tt teh bus will take 45 min b4 comin??
lolx....
den in th end when i called my mom she agree to pay 4 taxi ridr...lolz..... so...heng loz...hehe
den i quite lag never stop taxi properly de....
so i stopped 1 taxi too late den like as he stoppin the bus came in right in front of him?
den dang lu loz den liek so pai sehz....
hehe
lucky teh driver quite nice lahz still can laugh bout it?
hmmm...i still dun know teh diff between zhuo and you....
which is left and which is right?
ok dun laugh pls....i really really dunno loz>
so like.....sorrie lahz but i really dunno
den like ia sk te driver to drop me at the other side of my block and i FORGOT that that part was being renovated?
sigh y can't i b a bit smarter?
and the driver was layughin like crazy...sighx
oh yea yesterdae last period was biology?
den i chao hyper....
ok to b exact....
i was hungry and hyperactive....
tt is NT a gd mix trust me u can ask the guys if uw an i was like....
aaaaaaa
im bored im hyperactive...
den a lil while ltr i ase tt im hungry?
den like i shake my head and sae no dne i nod and sae yes continuously?
i have omitted the erm....nt so very nice words frm my "speech"
so yea sound betta le...abit lahz
realised that the rgs ppl gt their results 4 spsls?
darn wun speak bout it le....
aniwaes....
dun worrie mahz okie>
hmmm......wat else?
lemme c.....i dunno?
darn....
darn....
ani ideas?
oh YEA.....
darn it
i gt LISENING on sat
sadness....and i didn't check teh notice board im dead.....
oh yea heng was quite pissed tt the hw nt all hand up?
so like...oops?
hmmm.....den i supposed to dian ming?
bt i decided to leave it in sch 1st.....coz....
too mani ppl never pass up le...if i dian ming...alot of ppl gonna get killed loz?
hmmm....dunno? hope i dun get killed tmr loz?
oh wellz....
oral on 13th i THINK?
of course i might have gotten mixed up wif kee's u never know....
or mayb its 16th?
weird keiz.nvm....
i didn't check chum check 4 me de....so yea...
lolz....
hope he check correctly otherwise i die le.....
so yea pls pls correct
hehe....
darn u kenneth..
kenneth tan keeps writing on me!!!
and witing ppl's name on my hand somemore....
geee
ok i dun really mind bt like.......
aniwaes.... den like gt weird phrases 2!!!
lolx
"i love papa and mama...."
i wun forget tt siahz kenneth
darn u....hehe
bt now he sit behind me le!!
den like....kaoz....draw untill darn shuang loz....
den like....whenn i gonna sleep tt time he will kcik me to make me wake up hehee
hmmmm......i realsie tt i shld sleep at 11 or 12 if i sleep at 10 i will b darn sleepy when i wake up bt if i sleep at 11 i feel refreshed when i wake up so weird....
aniwaes science tution tcher said tt i seem to b veri distracted???
lolz....
well i guess shes correct baz....
dunno y cannotconcentrate loz darn.....den like in class i either sleep or tok loz....
siao le....
though ok i said i wuld try my bez to jiayouz...
so like now makin xtra effort to stay awake! and to lsiten to lessons loz.... and do hw yea....
i actually stayed up abit to do hw loz?
how great is tt?
damn....
yesterdae went online den scanned teh contacts nobody online loz...den tution start so i went to standby mode i didn't know tt i havn't log off?
den ltr when ppl sae helloz i dun even know....darn....
im sorrie.....
-Blogged at 7/01/2004 03:59:00 PM
Around the corner I have
a friend,
In this great city
that has no end,
Yet the days go by
and weeks rush on,
And before I know
it, a year is gone.
And I never see my
old friends face,
For life is a swift
and terrible race,
He knows I like him
just as well,
As in the days when
I rang his bell.
And he rang mine if,
we were younger then,
And now we are busy,
tired men.
Tired of playing a
foolish game,
Tired of trying to
make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I
will call on Jim"
"Just to show that
I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes
and tomorrow goes,
And distance between
us grows and grows.
Around the corner!
yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram
sir" "Jim died today."
And that's what we
get and deserve in the
end.
Around the corner, a
vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love
someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and
tell someone what they mean to you. Because when
you decide that it
is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most
importantly, stay
close to your friends and family, for they have
helped make you
the person that you are today.
-Blogged at 7/01/2004 03:21:00 PM
