Sunday, September 26, 2004
FOR THE UNEMPLOYED AND UNDERPAID
It's the same, outside.
Driving to the riverside.I pretend to cry
,Even if I cried, alone.I forgot the start,
Use my hands to use my heart.
Even If, I died, alone.
Even if I died, alone
.Since the 1st of June,
Lost my job and lost my room.
I pretend to try.
Even if I tried, alone.
I forgot the part.
Lose my hands to use my arms.
Even If I died, alone.
Even If I died, alone.
Even If I died, alone.
Even If I died, alone.
Even If I died...
-Blogged at 9/26/2004 11:27:00 AM
Thursday, September 23, 2004
erm....found this somewhere......
and gonna paste here to fill up an entry.....
try nt to read too much into it...
it wun really bear much scrutiny
To get off tiresome and lazy daysI don't want to rage with my yesterdays.I can see you are holding risky soul,Otherwise, courage is it clothing you?Get ready to fly in this dark world and wide.However hard it may be, I go to ride over.North wind, wake up! South wind, blow on!Just support by side! (chorus 1)To be myself I never stop lookin' for love.And I can feel we are one of a kind.Reputation has no meaning to me at all,Yet I wanna be counted by my fellow all the time. I can see you are holding risky soul,Otherwise, courage is it clothing you?When my fate wheels to go out of my sight,I had rave with fury rather that sit tight here.East wind, get set! West wind, rush on!Just support with your might! (chorus 2)Be courageous, be sincere at lookin' for love.We always follow on our own proper pride.I don't care how much is left when life is over.I just mind how I retain me as my own in my life. repeat chorus 1repeat chorus 2
-Blogged at 9/23/2004 06:57:00 PM
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Life is sad…..pain misery and sorrow all over the place..
Come back to me with all your heart don’t let fear keep us apart…
Sighz…life is pain wat can I say when ur still the same old brand new u
How I long to hold u as ur tears drip away like you lifeblood flowing so mercilessly slowly as it cuts and tears you frm within how I wish to hold u in my arms one more time b4 the winds of time blow us apart forever is bt a long period of time in your love
Basking in the sunshine u seek to take away my sun?Tears upon my shoulder upon my breath engraved into my heart.
Burned deep into my heart like the soulfire.
-Blogged at 9/15/2004 10:56:00 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
schoooooool moooooo
hmm.....sch startin grr...
FIR won zui jia xin ren
yay
jay won sth 2...
yeapiex..
abit lame bt heck lahz.
aniwaes sianz...tmr sch le bleaghgy
diex?
yeap diex...
copy hw!!!
though come to think of it...i doubt so....
lol...
hekc lahz....
ask for extension:P
is obvious playin??
hope so...
supposed to have a meaning relatin to life if u can find it? hehe
heck i like tt song!!
i wanna plae bball...
sadz...
*sobx* too i guess...
2 bz to plae grr....
i wanna PLAE!!!
wheeeeeee
ok aniwaes...i spent most of my free time online...wastin it awae.....
diaoz...
2dae had tuition till like 4.....and it staretd at 11 grrr.....
after tt went ntuc and bought ham lol...
and like....i ate it straight fmr e pack??
sighz...
back to the stone age...
i was like...hey it smells weird...
it smells like.......
dot dot dot...*lag time 4 thought*
a dead animal?!
den i was like DIAO!??????
dne iw as liek oh YEA!
its ham...
dotx..
im dumb if u din;t understand tt sorry ill xplain in detail next time i c u hehe
if anibody reads this aniwae...i mean check teh tagboard out man..
zeroooooo
nope nobody arnd hehe
so wats ebverybody doin??
all chiongin hw??
hehe
sigh nobody online....
at least anybody whu can tok....
all chiong hw
diao,,
whee diao
schooooool moooooo
bluexxxxxxx
zzzzzzzzzzz
wheeeeee
geeeee
teeeeeee
heeeeheeeeee
crap boy am i bored....
did u notice tt??
hehe
-Blogged at 9/12/2004 09:09:00 PM
Saturday, September 11, 2004
blame is such a tangible thing....it can b felt in juz a glance when sb looks at u and blames u 4 wat he/she is sufferin u can practically feel it...
bt sometimes...
i think we blame otehrs for our own misfortunes coz...
sometimes we meet frustrations...and when we meet the 1st convenient person we dump all e blame on him...
so utterly convenient ain;t it?
to blame otehrs and thus frenships sour...
like some i cna name i guess
blamin them 4 nt being 'cool' enuff tt they are distracting tt they kip interruptin u and are irritating etc...
i guess tts sad bt mayb nt?
coz life is fatalistic..
if u wish to end sth u can juz do it...
its a flexin of the human muscle....tt of self will and self determination.
so who are we to say its sad?
bt....to me its sad...
to c and feel a frenship in shambles really sux no matter wat u do or try nuttin works
and it seems like a lost case bt u dun wanna give it up coz u feel tt theres still a thin sliver of hope to it..
bt mayb there isn;t and its time to accept it?
mayb mayb..
bt mayb nt
so anibody wanna make judgements on tt??
fankly speakin i doubt so coz nobody reads this blog hehe
-Blogged at 9/11/2004 09:52:00 PM
sigh,...geee nt in e bez of moods...
spent evening doin maths....
and its nt normal maths....
its 4 tuition tmr and its a whole shitload of surds which i dun understand yay....
and its like..... ALOT of questions...
been goin 4 tuition since tues at 1 onwards....supposedly 4 2hrs bt drags to 4 or so...
and its nt even teachin more like....continuously doin hw and doin and doin...
apart frm tt i still have my normal tuitions...
so its total crap....
it might b dragged into sch week 2 sianz...
cna;t even finish tt tuition hw how i finish my sch work and other tuition hw??
fish....
-Blogged at 9/11/2004 09:49:00 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
so basically who can say tt sb is wrong??
in the end all of are blind fools blunderin along life like the useless scum we are so how can we differentiate between ourselves?
we are all juz useless dregs of life..
so who are we to judge?
how can we assume the temerity to judge otehrs when we ourselves are merely little pieces of filth on a dinning table?
unless we sae tt we are above teh rest??
teh vanity of vanities...
to think tt u are somehow special adn above others and tt gives u teh right to judge others or tt ur free will will never b threatened how do we dare sae such things? when life is so short so unsure....
we who are bt the husks of life seek to judge? to enforce our brand of wisdom and law?
what is to sae tt opur laws are fair and just tt we govern ourselves well wif self discipline?
then come sthe question can our so called self discipline b trusted?
or is it merely a distraction in our life to give us a sense of hopefulness tt we are nt so bad after all
a...consolation in our lives or a weak excuse to our very existence?
could our existence b merely a mistake? tt we are nt meant to exist>??
den whence come the notions of imortality and of JUSTICE?
of takin a life?
if tt person were nt meant to exist wat matter if his life ended?
den y shld the killer b put to death?
of is our existence justified??
how?
how do we prove our existence??
proof of existence:
my frens are waitin 4 me somewhere in this galaxy my frens are waitin for me to return to them somedae
i live for them they live in me...
tts how existence is proven
tt no matter wat...if u do ur duty as a fren even if u are bt ashes and in the embrace of God den....u will b remembered on this temporary world tt we know called earth till we leave the soil we grew up on and return to our Lord who cares for us..
we live because life is a learning experience and we haev to go thru this sometimes painful journey b4 we finally understand the meaning of our heaven..
otherwise u could b in heaven and yet nt know tt fact coz...
heaven is a place in ur heart...
we have a place in heaven bt heaven is formed thru our own desires passions and life..
heaven...
such a cliques word..
no longer does it stand for a place of eteranl joy bt a place of love and warmth,
a ploace of repose...
where finally we can strip off our masks of ebony and grime of marble and splendour and be ourselves in teh true word of its meaning...
ourselves....life.....time....
time is bt a human fallacy....human pride seeks to restrain time into mins hrs and days yrs millenia...
bt....wat IS a millenia..
can a millenia nt b a yr? a month nt a century?
whu determined time?
nt god surely...it is us in our conceit....whu seek to contain and objectise time
time is a river...
time is immortal..
coz time is nuutin bt an impression branded into our minds...
so whu is to sae wat time is??
time is bt a false notion of mankind
so how can we judge fools tt we are..
who are we to sae tt others ignore us when in fact we ignore them(personal experience i know trust me on tt)
who are we to accuse otehrs of lyin when we ourselves lie?
who are we to claim positions of honour and leave otehrs to lick teh scraps?
we are bt nuttin...
nuttin save thru God's love for us...
let us nt take things for granted and seek to judge when we are in such a bad position to do so
-Blogged at 9/08/2004 09:39:00 PM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
so speaking my words were stolen frm my mouth
so seeing my sight was stolen frm the south
ur juz there bt words are stuck in my throat
so seeing so speakin words in a moat
did tt make sense?? hehe
bananas bananas hanging on a tree
bananas bananas whats ur fee!
bananas bananas how u flee!
bananas bananas i wonder wat u see
bananas bananas wat more in the sea
yonder horizon in the dee
fathomless in the me
whee whee in the great free
bananas bananas hanging for all to see
im lookin for a key
to open up and see
tt bananas heart and eeee
d'ya reckon tt the key
will open up and invite me for tea
mayb win the heart and forever kee
love of a human sea!(banana or watever)
lalalalalala
banana banana banana banana
banana rox!
whee hehehe
ani1 wan banana??
im a pro at peelin BAnaNA
BAnaNA
BAnaNA
BAnaNA
BAnaNA
ok erm.....tts abit high.....
hehe....erm...i typed this out in full confidence tt jen wun c this hehe...
if u wonder wat the eee is its erm....dunno....anihow wack...ignore the last verse tts complete gibberish hehe...
and yes ybean i know tt a words resembles our mutual frens name....
hehe sorry couldn't think of anithin to rhyme??
whee....
-Blogged at 9/07/2004 10:34:00 PM
