Wednesday, December 29, 2004
hmm...
im a
kind soul. to help u wif ur blog ((:
-me-
-Blogged at 12/29/2004 10:05:00 PM
AAAAAAAAAA
crap i erm...accidentlly screwed my blog over *as per usual*
qien HELP!!!
ahha
-Blogged at 12/29/2004 02:58:00 PM
Friday, December 24, 2004
hmm..wat is sweeter? caramel,chocolate, or love?
k found out the ans
the sweetest thing is.....*drumroll*
qien!
haha
so accruing frm tt fact etc etc we conclude tt it means loves the sweetest!
yea
love is macademia nuts coookie!
sometimes the cookie gets burnt. juz like love.
sumtimes when u bite into the nuts when u haf a tooth ache, ur teeth hurts..haha like lOVE
but MOST OF the time.
haha love is SWEET
.haha like a yummy cookieee
lol....does this dsound familiar qien? wonder where u experienced all tt man *diao* haha jk jk
yea and and.....dunno nuttin to sae
oh yea
happy xmas!
-Blogged at 12/24/2004 09:04:00 PM
what is sweeter? caramel,chocolate or looove?
haha tt is 1 question i dun have an ans to...
aniwae dunnow at qien doin....she sae she damn bored den now she nt even onluine DOTX
bt aniwae its xmas eve! yay hooray and cheers...
tmr is xmas le! so yea....i think im supoosed to go 4 some party or watever bt cant rem the date le so...heck lah....
shall spend the remainder of the hols slpin or wat nt
true relaxation siahz...and damn it i still have abad cough
Nutx
-Blogged at 12/24/2004 01:39:00 PM
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
You dun nid to feel lonely....did u wonder wat i was doin?=)
everybody feels lonely its merely wat u do wif it tt counts coz all of us are lonely
even though it isnt obvious
even though we hide it so well
still we're lonely
ain't we?
even though we pretend tt we dun care
wes till do dun we?
or have we grown so numb to everythin tt... nuttin matters animore?
cheers den
UR NT ALONE
coz.....
Come stop your crying, it will be all right
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here don’t you cry
For one so small,you seem so strong
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm
This bond between us can’t be broken
I will be here don’t you cry
And you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart
Always
Why can’t they understand the way we feel
They just don’t trust what they can’t explain
I know we’re different but deep inside us
We’re not that different at all
And you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart
Always
Don’t listen to them,
cause what do they know
We need each other, to have and to hold
They’ll see in time, I know
When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you gotta hold on
They’ll see in time, I know
We’ll show them together cuz...
You’ll be in my heart
I believe, you’ll be in my heart
I’ll be there from this day on
Now and forever more
You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart always
Always...
I’ll be with you
I’ll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I’ll be there always
ill b dere;)
-Blogged at 12/22/2004 09:14:00 PM
Saturday, December 18, 2004
wah piang eh qien rox lah.....i come online and wat happens??? she disconnect frm msn wah piang pro and pro haha so much 4 being nice i guess...
* i shall retreat into the small world of dota* hehe
cya qien too bad wor:P
-Blogged at 12/18/2004 04:08:00 PM
Friday, December 17, 2004
damn it i lost my previous entry....bt to please qien ill update again!
ill go to the tok bout k? coz like we were supposed to present like things that a prefect must have lah so liek 1 grp presented "Servant leadership" and so miss teo *the prefect headmistress* asked wat they meant by servant leadership....her point of argument was sorta liek how can u be a servant yet lead at teh same time? i think this is a very valid question coz all of us are alwaes stuck in this dilemnia bout what exactly our roles are as "Servants" for the sch? or are we to take an active role in the sch and "lead" a paradox is it not? we alwaes struggle coz we are to b friends to them however how do we gt them to listen to us without exerting our authority? coz after all we seek to serve and c'mon we dun really like to shout at others too rite? and well its a fine balance lah i guess.
I still think prefects shld read this entry loz...haha mayb its mr ego speakin again lah..
Bt i stil think that sometimes its better to take the soft approach towards a particularlly thorny problem such as how to gt others to listen to u and yet maintain ur frenship wif em......itmight seem weird bt i find tt being friends wif them acty helps...bt mayb its juz me i guess...
perhaps our school makes it easier for us by trying to relieve the duties of guarddog from us...such as liek inspecting the attire of students etc to me i think thats a rather pathetic job? coz it sorta constrains teh prefects to a very.......small area of the sch in effect it basically makes the prefects into like JUST a disciplinarian....
Personally i think that everybody has a right to do or say watever they want to....i believe that a prefct has to b a gd role model however i also believe that being a prefect is not juz bout being the perfect lil angel and "Suckin up" to all the tchers and hope they will cast their eyes on u coz i think that is total bullshit. the most impt thing bout being a prefect is basically the intanggible thing called integrity wat are we w/o that preciious thing? i still believe firmly that we shld b steadfast in our own beliefs and in out own character there is bno pt watsoever acting like a gd boi and following all teh sch rules juz to fit ointo the mould of a prefect being a prefect also requires u to b natural to b urself....no iron clad discip[line thank you very much basically if u feel like cursing and swearin then by gum swear to ur hearts content theres no pt in closin urself or closeting all ur "forbidden desires" within urself juz coz its un prefectlike or tt it is nt a gd example to our peers....
I believe that no matter how badly we curse swear yell scream or watever we do nothing can be as big a crime as being pretentious why shld we hide ourselves behind a shroud? and act guai?? coz obviously everybody is in nature itself playful and wanna plae frm time to time Nothin absolutely nothing can b as big a crime to urself as tryin to fit urself into a mould that u can never possibly fit....Wat kinda example to your peers would u be if all you show them is an empty shell of urself???!!
Does that mean that u are encouraging them to hide within themselves i believe that the embodiment of being a true prefect is to serve others hoowever serving good naturedly and SERVING BECAUSE U HONESTLY WANNA SERVE
that is my way of being a prefect i will do anything i want to and not impede myself in any way because wat is life without scrapes and falls? all these have to be experienced in life otherwise life will slowly lose its meaning gradually for life is juz merely a majuestic journey of self understandin we forge our own fates and nobody may stop us unelss we stop ourselves frm preoceeding onwards.
of course this does nt mean that everybody who is nice sweet or observant of the sch rules in fact if wat they are doin is really wat they are then i warm heartedly appauld them coz that is a truely great virtue that they have and it is to b treasured well coz it is hard won
However to all teh pretenders and bootlickers i can honestly say that doing this is just pure wrong.....I seriously do not like people who seek to gain high status by sucking up coz...thats is just an enormous amt of trash......for ppl who reach their station 2dae by sucking up....all i can sae is c'mon guys......
oh well this world is full of waste talented individuals are sometimes sidelined due to their attitudes being "unacepptable"
LOL....so basically i think that prefects shld b free and nt constrained to any one thing...
now i know that bictoria tests their prefects on teh sch rules and regulations etc....now no offense bt i dun approve of such a method coz frankly speakin sb might nt nid to know the sch rules well and still b a gd prefect this is juz my 2 cents worth i guess Victorains hate sji ppl or sth i think...bt i dun remember us doing anithin in psarticular to piss them off?
mayb coz sji ppl are nice and benign...ok mayb nt still i still have noanswer to why there is alwaes an enmity between victorians and us...weird huh? haha
Ciao people sorry bout the long entry bet it bored u to death rite
-Blogged at 12/17/2004 08:36:00 PM
Saturday, December 04, 2004
I put together the words that were dried up
And all i wanted to do was convey my simple feelings
That somber wind was blowing on that day
I threw it into the ruins of yesterday
And now smiling, I can live with you YEAH!
but this affair will crucify you
So thats why we have to say goodbye
As it is now, we will try to know each other until nothing remains
And someday we will realise thats all there is to it
The sadness will flow down our cheeks and become a river of tears
That quivering feeling will become a strong whirl and fuse together
-Blogged at 12/04/2004 08:59:00 PM
Thursday, December 02, 2004
freakins cary
W
here do bad folks go when they die?
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
They go down to the lake of fire and fry
Won't see them again till the fourth of July
I knew a lady who came from Duluth
She got bit by a dog with a rabid tooth
She went to her grave just a little too soon
And she flew away howling on the yellow moon
Now the people cry and the people moan
And they look for a dry place to call their home
And try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels and the devils fight to claim them for their own
(Lake of Fire - Nirvana / The Meat Puppets)
-Blogged at 12/02/2004 11:58:00 PM
For some reason im feelin moody again.....
Sudden;y i feel so alone in this world again was talking to wei kann and talking bout rugby n well i realise that i need to regain alot of lost ground and i must seize this oppurtunity NOW and not wait anymore...
I could have started in 1st team when i first joined rugby-in sec2 bt juz coz i missed 1 trng my position was given to victor whu juz happened to b at the right place at the right time..
I admit that he is gd bt i guess that doesn't mean that gives me an excuse to give up on myself i guess....
Thats partialy the reason why i stopped comin 4 trng in sec3 coz lookin at ecerybody i felt that i was lost and could never enter into the team so...i just gave up and felt useless...so in a wae i lost myself to hopelessness....
The cruel monster opf selfdoubt slowly started gnawing on my heart and so i tried so hard to banish it by tryin to make more frens...bt well i realise that in the darkness of my heart i still yearn for something more...
Mayb something called a gd fren? mayb wat i said whe i was a kid is true..i can only have frens bt never ever gd frens wisdom of the young? probably.....somehow it seems as if nobody evens bothers to knock on the hearts door no matter wat i do...no mattter how much i try no matter wat i do still nothing seems to work perhaps its because im so utterly loathsome i guess....bt still i dun understand wat makes me so bad? wat makes it so hard?
OH i realise that jen's words have the power to inspire ppl...for some reason the conviction and spirit with which she speaks bout running seems to give my heart some warmth...probably coz it sorta makes u realise that everythin can b fun,exciting,invigoratin if u juz take the time to feel the joy in the moment i guess....
when i remember her passion and spirit when she talks bout running...in a wae it inspires me to try to do my bez in rugby aniwae!
haha....
since she wun even come to this particualr blog so i can freely express wat i feel i guess haha...
ANother 1 is zul even though it was just those few words it made me believe in myself for a fraction of a second and so id ecided to go bakc for trng and even if i cant make it at least i will b able to take prode in the fact that....at least i tried and did wat i culd instead of living in teh shadow of doubts...
thanks zul and wei kann....
you two are the burning pillars of the spirit of our teams keep it goin!
and secondly thankew jen...
for sometimes takin the time to juz sae hi to me thru an sms...
*even though u wun c this thxx aniwae*
and qien and ybean:)
u guys are great!
haha look forward to gettin my onli pressie for my bdae frm u guys! haha...
--. sad rite? lol....i dun think ppl even know my bdae...coz... i never eventell them!! haha
crap tts crazy..
also thankew xin an for being the person u are!
and well there are too many thankews to sae
and of course how can i forgt binni?*sounds like beanie i know*
how can i ever forgt all teh touchin things that all the psfs and psls have experienced and all the help and trust frm binni?
and i guess my family for being there for me...
even though sometimes....
aniwaes... sayonara amigos!!
wonder how amandas gettin along....lol..
happie bdae to her...i guess...
.....born one dae b4 me can't believe it...and a long time ago is till rem tt she rubbed it into my face by sayin tt shewas older than me..
grrr..
haha aniwae..
sayonara(for real this time)
-Blogged at 12/02/2004 10:03:00 PM
