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Sunday, July 31, 2005

blah im tired of this

-Blogged at 7/31/2005 12:20:00 PM

ughh nt feelin well.........
bleagh

-Blogged at 7/31/2005 12:33:00 AM

Saturday, July 30, 2005

just you and me lying on the greens
gazing at the starry sky
i just wished to be together forever...

-Blogged at 7/30/2005 11:44:00 PM

i saw one star last night, and that star shall hold all the hopes i have

-Blogged at 7/30/2005 11:22:00 AM

Friday, July 29, 2005

JOVIE I LOVE YOU!
thanks man....i seriously love u man=)
yay! so i wun lose my smses after all yay

den i kept my more personal stuff in my sim haha
yay ok den nt so bad=P
yay...

coz seriously some smses hard to delete.....

oh oh i wonder where the cousin is...
den we can lament together
how that eeeeevil person neglects us aiyoooooo
*boohoo boohoo*
*cries our hearts out*
lol...no lah its alrighty! jiayou worx......XDXD
XP

-Blogged at 7/29/2005 10:02:00 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

was lookin at convention pics...
hmm...and i miss it! haha
i miss teh fun the mixin arnd etc..
2 bad cant b 2 daes siahz..
damn sad lah!

hmm....oh well

reminiscing the past

-Blogged at 7/24/2005 09:29:00 PM

i feel so broken. the words dont match

hmm...oh ya my hp spoil dang....zzz sian hopefully mon can repair liaoz..
pls pls pls..

hmm i think i made sb angry coz i abit thoughtless..
im srry!
tired mah? den muz rest k??
=)

im reali sorrie lah k?
sorriex sorriex

-Blogged at 7/24/2005 09:07:00 PM

you only need me when you need help

-Blogged at 7/24/2005 06:22:00 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

i've found a reason to continue with the dance
if i just open that door, that door, ill b saved

-Blogged at 7/23/2005 10:10:00 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

my heart beats silently within my breast

each palpitation echoes the lonliness within my soul

will sb come save me?

from this all-consumin hunger

-Blogged at 7/20/2005 09:27:00 PM

MeOw

-Blogged at 7/20/2005 09:12:00 PM

i cant count the scars

-Blogged at 7/20/2005 09:12:00 PM

keep movin on and dun turn back

-Blogged at 7/20/2005 09:11:00 PM

no matter what decision you make, ultimately,
YOU will have to live with the consequences.
no matter what path you choose,
YOU will have to keep walking.
no matter what you do, DON'T regret it.

yeap tok frm yi shan's blog again...
so wat?
i feel liek stealin stuff=)

-Blogged at 7/20/2005 09:09:00 PM

sec 4's cant celebrate raical harmony dae RAHH
burn the sch down mwhahaha
dang it
BuRn BuRn!
EvErYtHiNg BuRnZ

-Blogged at 7/20/2005 09:08:00 PM

The Road Not Taken

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and
I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

took frm yishan's blog dun u juz love her?
yay...finally gt a poem on this blog
dots.

-Blogged at 7/20/2005 09:06:00 PM

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

oh great i can count the times i smiled 2dae....sians..
as in smile and really mean it lah
aiyo sad rite....
c i shld stay in sch more den can smile more

2dae all teh weird funy stuff seem to b perverted..
heck....
yeehsu was in the loo den nigel and teh rest chiong in after him lol...
den they locked the door and erm... k for the sake of ppl wif sensibilities i wun repeat wat they said lol...
but they were jokin lah dun xiang wai wai ok
coz if xiang wai wai it will b really crooked...
dots

den when i picked my my blue form sirhan was like dun go hm and have sex wif ur gf arh
wtf?
lol...
dne i was liek no lah sir too early 2nite den....
ok im warped too dots

oh ok nm juz laughed haha ok yeapiex thankie ann

oh ya wat else...
nuttin i think...

=P
yay

-Blogged at 7/19/2005 09:02:00 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

when u said gdbye
i was lost for words

i merely said farewell

and within myself i prayed
that u wld leave faster and nt turn back
to see the tears flowin down my cheeks

but what i really wanted to say was

do u really have to go?

i wish i had grabbed u by the hand and asked u to stay

-Blogged at 7/18/2005 08:05:00 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

if i cld then i wld

-Blogged at 7/17/2005 09:18:00 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

all my thoughts lead back to you

-Blogged at 7/16/2005 10:04:00 AM

Friday, July 15, 2005

she looks so sad in photographs

-Blogged at 7/15/2005 11:51:00 PM

dang im dissed...
smsed when i was nt supposed to...
crapx...

srry ann

-Blogged at 7/15/2005 11:50:00 PM

can't stop thinking about the first time

you

said

L -ove you and cant stop thinking

O -f you. You filled the

V -acvant hole in my heart and

E -nded the pain of being used and hurt.

Y -ou always know how to make me laugh

O -r make me smile. And I never

U -nderstood love until the day you

walked into my

life

-Blogged at 7/15/2005 11:34:00 AM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

i nid to work on my timing man...
2dae when i was in the office and goh poh kenn and sydney tan walked in *faints*
of all the stupid coincidences in the entire world
y me *rolls eyes*

and im in the mentor list diaoz
and goh poh kenn was like oh iggy ur here arh!!
come come i gt a paper 4 u...zzzz
oh man dotx lah!
den sydney held me up 4 abit askin me what was up..
*oh man i so dead*
and goh poh kenn saved me by askin me to go her office where she gave me my form
she can b such a dear=P

ok acty they are nice ppl lah they concerned then ask mah so i dun mind=)
hehe honestly speakin they r really nice ppl
juz tt they r misunderstood lo sad rite
and really goh poh kenn is nice lah u guys shldnt worry so much!

=)

-Blogged at 7/13/2005 09:29:00 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

I believed when the clock struck 12 ..
I would still remain gracefully posed in the centre of the ballroom
I believed the prince would take my hand and tell me he has chosen me
I believed it wasnt just a fantasy..
I guess I was delusional in the face of something so perfect ?
because the dress turned back to rags
my long hair fell down back to my shoulders
with all the jewels gone.
I clutched my clothing in embarrassment
and cringed at the looks present around the ballroom
the prince walked away ..

-Blogged at 7/12/2005 09:06:00 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

zzzz

kk...so what to do ne...

ok tmr shall go find jovie and tok to him =)
wheeeee

-Blogged at 7/11/2005 08:52:00 PM

cmon iggy lets nt brood so much

but i cant help it

-Blogged at 7/11/2005 08:51:00 PM

I'm open, you're closed

-Blogged at 7/11/2005 07:57:00 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

oh ya great u know what my mum wants me to go 4 tuition

fuck????

ok...wat the hell......actually amkes sense but wat the heck... ok mebbe i shall go

-Blogged at 7/09/2005 02:44:00 PM

run away from this world

-Blogged at 7/09/2005 02:32:00 PM

nows a good time to get drunk

-Blogged at 7/09/2005 02:32:00 PM

so this is when it all breaks down

-Blogged at 7/09/2005 02:26:00 PM

zzzzz tok bout depression

talk about foreboding...

why is it that whenever i think sth bad will happen

i guess it spot on...

y cant i ever spot anithin gd that will happen

why is it that no matter what i do

somehow i can guess teh time when a relationship cracks

be it friendship or any bonds with anybody

y do i somehow have a feeling and vague knowledge of when it ends.....

its just too cruel

-Blogged at 7/09/2005 02:13:00 PM

there it goes again...

somehow losing communication

den we miss n opportunity to meet

and somehow the distance will grow

and den nothingness

-Blogged at 7/09/2005 02:10:00 PM

fuck this world

u bloody unfair fuck

there goes......there it goes....

somehow it turns out this wae....

bloody fuckin hell

fuck off.......

-Blogged at 7/09/2005 02:08:00 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

impossible fantasies
flitting by

-Blogged at 7/08/2005 10:34:00 PM

the realistic and cruel world
robs me of my dreams

-Blogged at 7/08/2005 10:33:00 PM

why do we hurt each other if we love each other so

-Blogged at 7/08/2005 10:31:00 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

love alwaes exists...even when sometimes we dun believe it does
love is hopeful
love is accepting..

theres a story of a ger whu loved a boy too much
so much so that she gave her all to him.....
all her love and all her care
and for a time they were happy

Cinderella and her prince
so beautiful so sweet cinderella
entrancing the world
with those gracious steps

sweet cinderella
so hopelessly in love

she felt that he was the one
the one whom she cld spend her whole life with
the princess and the prince
they wld live happily ever after

but isnt the world just so
cruel and heartless
the butterfly flies past and
the winds of change blow

one day the prince left her
for seemingly so reason
he simply said
"you lied"

she was devastated and lost....
in the end she found out that
he had found
somebody new

Poor cinderella
heart broken
tears flowin
nobody to heal that shattered heart

she realised that
all the promises
of everlasting love
were false

from that day she never stop hurting
she never stopped bleeding,
the tears still flow behind that smile
relentlessly

the scars still remain
the pain still resounds unabatted
her heart still weeps tears of blood
for that forsaken love

she never dared to love again
she was so afraid of being hurt once again
what wld she do if it happened again?
how could she stand it

she said that
perhaps a lil bit more time
before i open up again
a lil more time to heal my wounds

the first cut is the deepest
the first touch is the sweetest
the first scar never fades
the first caress is endless

i wonder when will cinderella ever heal?
i wish something cld b done
.......foolish wish to heal a heart...........
a whisper carried on winds of time

butterfly butterfly
fly once more
bring the winds of change
heal the broken heart

patch the broken promise
behold the written promise
seal the spoken promise

-Blogged at 7/07/2005 08:41:00 PM

the city in the georama of the heart
is sparkling with the light of hope
the dream that flew up with the wings of an ephemera
is something that we search for
the truth is always
hiding in the eyes bluely

where shall we go up to
our future roams around now
and we continue with our journey
the place of eternity, and endless dream
I want to chase after it without letting go of this hand
forever

in the ocean in the turquoise-colored heart
the signals of the ship of light can be heard
I need to go faster, for this impatient feeling
no words are needed
a lie is always
hiding in the words sweetly

let the two of us become one
holding on to the coward waves
we continue with our journey
the space between our hug
an endless dream
cutting through the rainbow
heading for the promised light

where shall we go up to
our future roams around now
and we continue with our journey
the place of eternity, and endless dream
I want to chase after it without letting go of this hand
forever

-Blogged at 7/07/2005 08:39:00 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Sometimes you cant believe what u see
you have to believe what u feel and if
ur ever goin to have other people trust you
you muz feel that you can trust them
even when ur in e dark
when ur falling

-Blogged at 7/06/2005 09:11:00 PM

some people i wished would care about me more wont. im just delusional.

-Blogged at 7/06/2005 08:57:00 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

Without death there is no life and without life there is no creation
Everything is easy until you try it
The greater the burden the greater the deed
To lose is to learn, to win is to prove your knowledge and skill
Soldiers fight for the sake of fighting, but heros fight for peace
Things should never be taken at face value
A good deed is it's own reward and a bad one it's own punishment
The more you learn the less you know

-Blogged at 7/04/2005 09:24:00 PM

hmm...oh its actually is it hard to find loyal frens acty....its kidna hard to dpends on definition haha
yea coz some ppl move on after some time nt coz they are nt loyal juz tt they wanna experience more things....

actually deep down inside im kinda scared...what if ya leave me?
den ill b all alone juz as it was b4...
no1 can hear my screams
no1 can hear me cry
no1 can see the tears
no1 wld heal my scars

strange....
i thought i left these feelings behind me

apparently not.... oh well
conquer thy fears
face up to it lo=)

being there for each other doesnt mean alwaes being close together
so much so that it interferes wif each others lives
coz tt aint love
tts obsession
no es amore=)

keep true to the dreams of youth

what if my dream were simply to love wif all my heart and soul
what if it were to change the world for the better
what if it were to simply b wif u alwaes
what if.... i were to sae i love you

i wish i wld nvr part with you
bt somehow it sounds impossible but i believe that
life is what we make of it
we can make anything happen
if we simply have the will

-Blogged at 7/04/2005 08:49:00 PM

hmm juz read sb's blog and it sound so sad! seriously sad lah ok?
hey mc dun fret lah ok?? ok? smile smile...
juz meet it wif a smile baz im sure things will work out....
somehow they alwaes do....
even if its not for the best...

blah

sometimes i wish i could just b stuck in that moment
just that tiny instant where nuttin cld take u awae frm me..
bt somehow it seems teh harder that i try
the worse it bcomes

eh jem dun worry lah whu cares man fail dne fail lo juz do wateva u r happy wif lah=)
b true to urself...

sigh wish sometimes cld alwaes b teh same to b so beautiful so fun so nice and juz sooo.... intruiging. the feeling of being loved is 1 gd example.....makes me feel good! and nice too.... it rejuvenates me 4 the looooong dae ahead haha
thanekw!*huggles*

everlasting love perhaps??=) if onli it were true den ill b happy bt nvr fret perhaps we cld make a love that wld last 4eva and change teh world perhaps nt change it bt at least enrich ourselves
everybody liek to feel wanted and loved.
dare to believe
dare to dream
dare to hope
dare to love
that wld b our legacy

ai shi te ru

hey i know jap!

sometimes the hardest thing to do is
being true to urself
it take alot of courage to be
true to ur feelings
and to tell sb
just how u feel

-Blogged at 7/04/2005 08:37:00 PM

apparently ppl are bz doing work....and im here diaoz....
oh ya i cant do eng or chin coz 4 1 i lost my gao zhi and 2 i dun have eng q paper grrrrr
shucks gtta chiong chin tmr sian and i thought of bein a gd boi 2 diaoz

oh ya xa bringing my stuff 4 me on tues(tmr) yay!!!
bt gt hist test diaoz....hope i pass man....i realli did study this time!
nuz pass lo otherwise ill b really sadz....=(

haha right k so aniwae wassup ppl i think 2dae amaryash gt party or sth or is it an outin..... dunno didnt read sms properly srry i cldnt go siah stay at hm study hist lalalala

im srry anna hai ur sms so high again =P
acty mine also oh man veri log no sms zhuo min...lol...
nm lah he shld underdtand=) srry ya

eh wah piang apparently jem didnt study kao bei eh unfair lah!
den i study my partner nvr study sianz....
oh ya bt he will prob trash me in hist aniwae sianzzzzz
nm its ok somedae ill beat u! liek real soon man!

oh look at joshua's nick "how hard is it to make real frens"
its veri veri hard......dun think its entirely possible dpend on definition i guess
i know i have a few here and thewre *i hope* bt c them so rarely!!!
*huggles* yeap tts 4 u dear=)
yes yes zhuo min included and u jem juz dun pms me=P binni 2 lets nt 4gt binni and kee=)
and jovie i guess

ok so mebbe i gtta dump the renaissance tix on sb dpending.....ok dear pls confirm soon k? yea den can give sb anibody wan 2 renaissance tix? goin 4 20 bucks.... jovie if i nt goin pls buy frm me hor dun try to zhan [ian yi last min go there buy 1 tic 4 5 bucks...*so evil lah*
and he cant read this coz hes studyin diaoz... sian liao how bout davidson pls buy fmr me!!! lol if i nt goin lah....

hey main pt is to c u loz u nt goin dne bleagh le....i go meet u=P oh ya gd luck wif ur work=)
jiayou lo *pours oil*

oh great jem is rich video conferencin...and i nid like free smses and tok time man!!
oh ya nvr tok to addy 4 damn loooong.....or sms kee 2 diaoz... k nm muz save smses!! *even though i killed my bill* i dun nid to liek torture it to death rite

diaoz k sb gimme sth to do......ok i nid motivation man!!!!=P

-Blogged at 7/04/2005 08:18:00 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

.....2dae after tutition i attempted to cross the counter tt was "closed" the way was blocked by a plastic chain.........
i tripped nearly fell and broke it gosh...
and u know wat worst
shannon, chris and tehri parents were there great......
haha
bet chris' parents are liek wat teh hell tt boi again sigh

sian liaoz...

oh yea..i look frward to renaissance=)
cya there hehe

lalalla kinda happy 2dae =P
haha

-Blogged at 7/02/2005 10:26:00 PM